#94

#94  So here I was... With you A place I never thought I'd see A constellation I never thought I'd explore I house I never thought I'd make a home in.  You were everything I never thought  Yet my mind was an open grave And in it I layed Like a slave not wanting to be freed. I was happy losing touch with the world & having the ground to remind me of the laws of gravity I hadn't a thing to call a friend But your mere words of invitation into your life resurrected me.   And so I rose into the warmth of your sun As your rays kissed my skin, I knew that this was real  Even though you had me mentally ill over a then uncertain day When I'd have to pack my things  And go back to the grave A day I hoped would never come.  When my scars were finally visible in light &hard to look passed When what was a constellation Becomes darkened clouds   I was terrified of things that went bang! in the night I couldn't handle losing you I had said that I love you  But I didn't want Shakespeare to mistaken us for Romeo & Juliette I wanted a unique love One no one else could find.  I wanted to be your warmth; A different kind of safe & secure. I wanted to be a home whereby whatever the storm, in it, your heart could endure.   I wanted to be your music  Your favourite song on your playlist And sometimes I wanted you to dance out-of-tune Because there's no other perfect than imperfect that exist.  I wanted to be your English lesson I wanted to punctuate you wrecklessly   And watch you have grammatical fits Si that your body is bruised with the words : I'm in-love with you I wanted your full stops And I wanted your pausing commas.  I didn't want same I wanted different everyday  I wanted shouting and screaming And making mountains make way.  I wanted war rooms  And bruised knees from praying  I wanted challenge & fire And everything that was positively disturbing.  I wanted you I wanted me I wanted us to be the truest paragon of art.  ~TheGiantMo